17.1.07

I really should get into the habit of waking up early
so maybe, just then, I can make it into my 9am class on time
Rather than, being on time once last year... hahaha

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Really, I should have seen it coming
Once again, you let the benefit of the doubt cloud the warning bells
Until you're there, seeing it happen but not quite wanting yourself to believe it
I freeze. And make myself believe it's a surreal dream.
So my head cuts its physical connection... suspending my shocken state to anywhere, somewhere else except there

But I still hate myself for freezing up.

Ugh.
What I would give for company I can trust right now... for the people who never fail to make me smile. Fly me home somebody, please.