Somedays, the bureaucratic paperwork, time and distance between us breaks my heart.

This whole visa thingy has made me realise how little control I have over my own life and the decisions that I make. Honestly, it drives me crazy.
If I'm not in control, who is?

"Ultimately, I have just as little control over my own life and what will happen to me. Isn't the easiest thing at this point to start living in a guarded, safe, controlled way? To stop taking risks and to be ruled by our fears of what could happen?

Turning inward is one way to respond; the other is to acknowledge our lack of control and reach out for God's help.

If life were stable, I'd never need God's help. Since it's not, I reach out for Him regularly. I am thankful for the unknowns and that I don't have control, because it makes me run to God."

-"Crazy Love" by Francis Chan